It's 2am in the morning and I really should be sleeping. I have a ton of things to complete tomorrow. However I am still awake attempting to consolidate my thoughts into this report that the school expects me to produce about my internship, entailing whatever I'm supposed to have learnt from it. I'm wasting even more time by typing this. The truth is that the requirements for the report, while adequately (extremely actually) informative and technical, hardly encapsulate most of the key things from the firm which I truly value and hold close to my heart, so it has become doubly hard to write.

I can't write about all the conversations we had in the car, on the way to court, over countless meals, and across the desk in the office, but they are what mattered most to me. Until today the conversations still replay in my head.

Maybe I'm just lazy. Also, I don't think any educator would advocate reporting writing at 2am in the morning. I don't think your brain works very well at this time. Hopefully I will find that the requirements are extremely inspirational tomorrow morning and a rush of purpose will fill me. There is also the problem of time constraint. Serves me right for not starting early!

It's been so rainy the entire day and I effectively spent most of today alone. I enjoy solitude once in awhile, but because it's rainy, I now cannot wait for Christmas because there'll be a huge feast, warmth, laughter and happiness like there is every year at my aunt's, and I come home after that feeling all tingly, content, thankful, bursting with unspoken gratitude. I hope we do that this year once again. I miss family, security, and the feeling of knowing that come what may they will always be there.

I am abandoning my report and going to sleep now. Goodnight!

My last school semester in Temasek Polytechnic begins on Monday, because all too soon, my 3 month internship with M/s M & N drew to a close this week. "Expect the unexpected" has been the story of my life and the closure of this chapter this past Thursday will simply be another addition to that mantra. I will always be thankful that I sent that email on a whim, that everywhere else sent me a rejection email, and that I never got any other offer from any other firm/company save for this one, however ironic that may seem to be.

Few places accept people the exact way they are, and I am lucky to have chanced upon such a place. I met people who restored my belief in the many things which I have long forgotten and given up on, met people who affirmed the things I currently believe in, and met people who didn't scoff at my ideals. These very same people took time off their extremely hectic lives to invest in mine, held my hand, made these 3 months a turning point in my life, and told me to "chase your dream". It has not been without some dark periods, but the light that comes after more than makes up for any momentary eclipse. I take away as much as I have given, and I cannot put into words how much comfort and warmth these 3 months have provided me with.

Good things truly do come in small packages after all.